Bingo Boy

I was walking back to my crib one day from coming back from the gym and I saw an old man sitting on a tree stump playing some kind of bingo or scratch off lotto game. Let me tell you, this guy looked like a crack head on them scratch offs, it was weird. He had a few cards and a few penny's and was just (pardon my language) but scratching the HELL out of them cards. At first it was funny to me, but then I really thought about it and I started to get into deep thought.

I thought to myself, "Man I hope I don't end up like that" Old as hell sitting on a tree stump hoping and scratching that I win some money. At that age I hope to be well invested into some mutual funds and businesses just enjoying my retirement. I'm sorry but lotto and gambling is a fool's game. You'll never win, and I hope that my talents will be enough to earn me an income to where I can invest in the future. Seeing that man made me just want to work harder at my craft man, I don't know sometimes I just be thinking like man people really get old. I mean we start off so young as infants and we think we will never age. I look at photos of my father and my mother when they had me and I was like 2 or 3 (firstborn) and they were like 23 and 25 and how they were just like me you know, young and ambitious and just chilling. Let me add, that they are both around 50 and look fabulous just as they did at 20 but I think just getting older is a scary concept sometimes.

I see it like this, you don't get better when you get older...by that I mean sometimes you have to live a dream and follow a dream young and fresh or that time will pass you by. Let me explain what I mean. For example, imagine if Michael Jordan tried to play ball for the first time right now while he was in his 40's. Say he had the same exact talent in basketball while he was young but never used it, just played street ball and never went to the NBA...and him trying to get into the NBA at 40 something with the same talent...It's just not the same. It just makes me wonder like I really have to do this now, I really have to do this now. Patience is key but it's like sometimes you just have to do this. Anyways, I dunnoo maybe I'm buggin, it's like 7:25 in the morning on Saturday

You know what Im not done yet, im still thinking...I always wonder, what happens to the people who chase their dream but never make it? That must be the worst feeling in the world. Trying to do something and you put so much passion into something and believe and pray and have faith that something will happen but what if it never happens? Then what, what are you supposed to do? Living life knowing that you should be doing this...but your'e doing that? Man even thinking about that brings tears to my eyes dude, like what is this all for you know. Sometimes I wonder what God was thinking when he created man, like it's like humans have to suffer on Earth and live life and try to be happy but live through painful periods and then after some time it's over like you've never existed returning back to the dust. I don't get it man, maybe that's the beauty of life you know? Because we're not immortal every moment has to count and be cherished...I dunno mayb im bugging

Im out