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dot dot dot. That's exactly how I feel...man there's alot of things running through my head right now. I guess im just thinking about some things. Im a litte pissed off actually. I performed at my church on Sunday and I thought I killed it. However, to some people I guess I might have come off as "arrogant" First off I hate when people say that to me, secondly if you dont come across confident in your performances, the crowd will eat you alive and that's what they want to do. They want you to mess up so they can hate on you. Well I ripped the HELL out of that performance and I guess they couldn't handle it. These are church folks I'm talking about here. MY home town church... you would think it wouldn't go down like that, but it did. I mean maybe I shouldn't of been hoodied up, but so what! I wore a baggy hooded sweatshirt with baggy jeans and boots...that's my style. Aight maybe I could of toned it down but I was trying to send a message...God loves you how you are na mean. My girl says I need to be more tough and stop being so sensitive to everyone's remarks...shes right, but Im and artist and I'm sensitive about my SH*T!

Moving on...YO ima stop trying to please these MOTHERF*CKERS. Everyone always got something to say about something. Seems like since they can't make music or have any special talents, they in the game of hate. Who am I referring to? Everyone man. Like Eminem said, "I tried to show you art, but you just pick it apart" That leads me to one conclusion...F*CK everybody (referring to the critics)

Moving on...I got Mood Muzic 3 for XMAS and it's crazy...I was watching the DVD and it just made me start thinking alot about my music, Hip hop and R&B. I need to get back on my grizzle...stop playing around and take this shit to the next level. I need to be eating, sleeping, and shitting this music. I need to be so prepped and rehearsed that I blow everybody away. So what did I do...I went out and bought me the best pen and pads I could find at staples. I will be writing a song everyday until I can just write songs in my head and sing from the top of my head. Thats it...THE DVD started to make me think about hip hop and how much it is apart of me and the hip hop culture I grew up in. I hate it sometimes but I can't escape it. Although I sing R&B, this HIP HOP can't be escaped. It's like your born, and then Hip Hop is born with you. As an R&B cat you try to separate the two cause after all they are 2 separate forms of music, but growing up in the hip hop culture it's hard. I hate where hip hop is going right now...TO me HIP HOP is like McDonalds...The fries tasted better when it didn't change the oil. They change the oil and the fries taste like shit. How you gonna have healthy fries? Keep it Trans Fat...it's the peoples choice whether they want to eat there or not, feel me? R&B makes me sick too...The shit sounds wack to me. Watered down and following the same formula as HIP HOP. The only catz impressing me right now in R&B is JAHEIM thats it. D'angelo too but he aint coming back out. All these other fake R&B thugs need to stay true to themselves and stop trying to be what the label wants them to be. HIP HOP, the same thing..the only catz worth mentioning in my book are JOE BUDDEN (and im not just saying that cause I'm from Jersey)Nas, Jay, and TI

Moving on...I was browsing myspace and noticed that someone else has my name. J-RE" That's total bullshit, i mean come on. How you gonna name ur self J-RE the exact way that I got it spelled. Im so pissed, I had this name all my life. But whatever keep the name, i was thinking about changing it anyway to J.***** (try and figure that one out) or Ill just keep my government David